Jesus

I feel slightly overwhelmed at the moment, but in a good way...in an overwhelmed-by-Jesus kinda way...
I've just been sitting at my computer reading scripture and listening to songs about Him this afternoon, and there is none like Him. I have been struggling with seeing so much sin in my life...I am prideful and arrogant and I worship so many other things like comfort and reputation and just myself! The sin of my heart seems to be never ending, I feel like pure motives are impossible! I cry out for the Lord, but is it for my own deliverance or to serve Him? Yet, He didn't count equality with God a thing to be grasped, which is what He fully was and deserved, but He took the form of a lowly servant of man, and died the most terrible death on the cross to bring me to God - that somehow, I would get to take part in glorifying Him by being totally satisfied in Him and purified and justified by Him! Although my sin is GREAT, His grace is greater! (Romans 5:20)...HOLY COW my mind can't even wrap around it!!!!
And He defeated death...my Savior is not one that was overcome, but He overcame. He overcame it ALL.
As I've been sitting in my quiet, little, Trojan Village room, I've come to understand something. Life may not have the greatest of circumstances right now, but what if it did? What if all of life were perfect? Today, for example, was a good day. Nothing went wrong really...the weather was warm again :) And yet, I'm sitting here longing for something...
In 1 Peter 2:11, Peter calls us "sojourners and exiles" and Philippians 3:20 says that "our citizenship is in HEAVEN"...I don't belong here, that's why this world, good or bad, holds nothing for me - never satisfies me. On "one of those days", I would normally want to just go home, or eat some chocolate, or watch a funny movie, or be surrounded by friends, or nap, or something...but I don't want any of those things.

"LORD, to whom shall we go? YOU alone have the words of life" - John 6:68

I listened to a song today by Phil Wickham (LOVE that guy!) called "Heaven Song"...and I just cried listening to it because I long for this day. I want to be with Jesus, unhindered by sin and this world. He is so good...I want to see Him.

You wrote a letter and You signed your name
I read every word of it page by page
You said that You'd be coming, coming for me soon
Oh my God I'll be ready for You

I want to run on greener pastures
I want to dance on higher hills
I want to drink from sweeter waters
In the misty morning chill
And my soul is getting restless
For the place where I belong
I can't wait to join the angels and sing my heaven song

I hear Your voice and I catch my breath
'Well done my child, enter in and rest'
Tears of joy roll down my cheek
It's beautiful beyond my wildest dreams 

No, I cant wait to join the angels and sing my heaven song

"Your steadfast love, O LORD, extends

to the heavens, 

Your faithfulness to the clouds. 

Your righteousness is like the 

mountains of God;

Your judgments are like the great

deep;

man and beast you save, O LORD. 

How precious is your steadfast love, 

O God!

The children of mankind take

refuge in the shadow of Your wings...

For with You is the fountain of life;

in Your light do we see light."

-Psalm 36:5-9